Well for starters, Happy New Year everyone!
I hope everyone bought in 2019 with nothing but great vibes and positivity! A new year represents new beginnings and more blessings. But you can’t properly move on into the new year without a little reflection!
So here’s mine…
2018 has been one of the most challenging years for me emotionally. Y’all, I literally went through every emotion you could possibly go through, from very happy to depression (and that’s alright because I bounced back you guys). I had plenty of ups, downs, and challenges.
- Well, to start, I turned 23 years old in January, SHOUT OUT TO MY GOD, forever grateful.
- I went to California for my birthday and literally had a blast. I almost cried that I had to leave. Side note: that time difference on your body is NO joke, and California drivers are extremely reckless for no reason lol.
- I saw dvsn, H.E.R., and Miguel twice. I saw them all once in Washington, D.C. then again in different cities (minus Miguel, I saw him in D.C. both times).
- Built a better relationship with God & I started going to church, taking notes and listening to sermons in my free time (special shout out to Kiara, we go to church together every Sunday, when I’m not working). God and I are like best friends now. We don’t see eye to eye sometimes but I learned to never question Him, so there’s that.
- Became serious about my fitness in May. Memorial day weekend my family and I went to Corolla, N.C…y’all I put on a bathing suit and felt so fat, it was ridiculous. Literally been in the gym four days a week since. (special shout out to my trainer Samaiyah Williams)
- Let go of some VERY toxic people.
- Grew closer to some people.
- Graduated from Radford University with a Bachelors of Business Administration in Marketing
- Struggled with depression. Well, sometime around February up until the beginning of April I fell slowly, but surely, fell into depression and I never told anyone this (I just assumed I was in an ongoing funk). Also, I’m not going to go into details. Just know if it wasn’t for my family and friends (honorable mention: Darryn, Jerrontay, and Briana) I wouldn’t have gotten out of it.
- Not feeling good enough. Again, not going to go into details but April was a rough month for me. When I started feeling like myself again in August, shit (sorry mom) hit the fan. However, after reflection, forgiveness, space, and a LONG talk with God. I overcame that negative spirit….in October. (better late than never right?).
- I spoke on this in a previous blog but, this adult life = sucks. Finding a job after college was very stressful, then going on a million and one interviews and not getting the jobs draining.
- Adjusting to life after college and living in Richmond for the first time since 2014. This was a challenge because I’m so used to being on my own that living back home started a little rough lol.
- Building a relationship with God. Listen, this was one of the hardest things I did during 2018. For one, I had to do this in order to get out of my depression and two the world wanted to pull me one way when God wanted to pull me another, in the end, I chose my God. I am not saying this was easy because it definitely wasn’t, but with patience, love and willing to learn…it became easier.
2018 ended up being a very hard year for me, but, as crazy as it sounds, I wouldn’t have changed a thing about it. I’m stronger because of it. Now could I have done without a couple of things, DEFINITELY but hey, that’s okay. I learned a lot, laughed a lot, loved a lot, also cried waaaaay more than I should’ve and that’s okay too.
In the end, I had way more highs than lows. The lows happen to be VERY heavy but the ultimate high was making through another year (so shout out to MY GOD).
What’s in store for 2019
If I had one word to describe what 2018 has been for me…I would choose the word “humbling”. I honestly felt I was humbled A LOT with every experience from the year. I had to learn the hard way that everything you want isn’t in God’s plan for you, which was a really hard pill to swallow.
A couple of days ago I asked Twitter this question
It was just a random question because I wanted to share mine, but I actually received a couple of responses
I actually asked one person would she mind elaborating on her reasoning and her response was
Which prompted me to ask friends and family and here are some of their responses
I recognized I wasn’t the only one who had a challenging year, everyone had to get through something this year whether it was good or bad. So in my eyes, this means 2019 will be the year of blessings. Let’s embrace 2019 in with open arms and thank God that we got through another year! Let’s get ready for these blessings that are about to be showered on us. Let us grow.
So what’s in store for the new year? GROWTH: spiritually, physically, emotionally, and mentally.
(I would love everyone who reads this to comment one word that describes their 2018 in a nutshell and explain why)